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Covens, House and VR
08:18 Dec 27 2005
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I'm personally glad that Cancer and the other admin have started these social sections because it keeps a few members from attacking others and gives the entire site a very good glimpse at just what people really are made of and are capable of.



As I've been told, a few things have happened. And all I have to say really about it is, I don't think I give a real effort of any kind, to any covens and or Houses of their actions.



But, again, to Lucioswolfe, you knew it was coming and you pulled the tail of the Admins and got kicked. As for Alek's coven. I'm sorry to hear that you've been fucked over, and hope you recover some of your dignity.



After all, the entire social structure is to see the rise and fall of Houses and Covens, to see who is better etc.



I will stay out of it for my own sake.

Not to end up like Wolfey there, or any other members concerned.

Finally a Caitiff
10:26 Dec 13 2005
Times Read: 558

Yes... Yes.. Finally a Caitiff...



But not for any aims that are at the Houses.

I just wanted to get here for no more reason than it's another level!

00:03 Dec 13 2005
Times Read: 567

It figures there'd be so many depressed people in the holidays wouldn't it? All I see are people complaining about how lonely, bitter and cold they are. Well, guess what. I'm in that boat too and personally I don't let it bother me that much.



I may bitch now and then, I may realise a few cold sad facts that make me seriously wonder about my own dubious sanity, but nothing makes me gives up. If I don't win directly I win indirectly, and maybe not now but later. Whenever the opportunity presents itself to my waiting hands.



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I have been up for roughly 24 hours. I feel shitloads less tired than I did for the last one, I will get even less sleep this time and I should take care of my body but it seems even thought the head screams for sleep, the body continues on... and on... and on. It won't sleep.

Perhaps now it will, now that I'm pushing it beyond it's limits. I know my body and it's not able to take alot in one go. Stuff like sleep depriviation etc. Beltings and the like, I can handle no matter the pain.



Talking to Rage. It's proving to be a very good and long interesting friendship there. He has a good solid head on his shoulders and he's a self-admitted Grammar Nazi.. *smiles* Not good enough you're in my mental state as of this moment. The language has actually gone up a step, and strangely enough it's comfortable. My use is rusty but will improve though I'm not looking to seem pompous, assholic or the likes. I am merely keeping with him and seeing what happens.



He asked of the Houses, NoctemAeternus etc. I told him about my own, and how in general, NA and HoA run, off what, what codes, rules etc. He may have alot of questions to answer, and I'll be happy to. If I don't know the answer, I'll deffer to a site I know that does have it. I pretty much know most sites that have an answer to anything and if they don't I'll scout around and ask.



HotD should be able to help, as long as I can find a thread for it. I'm a member of there too... I have to ask if it's alright to make a House first... *Shrugs* This should bring alot of interesting facts into Light.

Despair
20:09 Dec 12 2005
Times Read: 568

Sometimes.... Does one ever wonder why the past haunts us?



** It haunts to create a new facet of the person, of the one that is troubled by that which they cannot understand or begin to deal with. Hence your own turmoil. **



Was there something I personally did not learn that my ex must haunt me in my mind or is this apart of something less I put away to deal with later?



** The emotions you had/have for him will not lay to rest because you have no dealt with the fact that you are responsible for having lost him in the first place. You place a blame on him, when it is *your own* fault for pushing him away. Because your unconscious knows this, it is forcing your conscious to bring the event to the fore and thus haunting you with your mistake. And his obvious pain when you did dump him. Once you deal with this and rectify the attempts you have made to contact him, then will it finally be at peace. Until then, you will be emotionally unstable for the times to come when different lovers come along. **



This infernal "puppy love" that is making me cold, miserable?



** Infernal? Everyone deals with puppy love, Jake is still looking for that one perfect love. Those who live with their partners for a long time resign to the fact and knowledge that Love is blind, insane, unstable. Lust will never last and compatibility will go through the ages. You haven't quite learnt this yet even though you know it, thus you are still struggling to understand why you search for something you know you cannot possibly have again. You will succeed with this I know. But you may not be the same person afterwards. It calls for you to face that the puppy love is over and the real love, this solid long-term stuff is never going to be the same as what you had with your ex. **



What am I looking for?



** Puppy Love. A sense of security and an escape from what you know you must face. Hence your asking of this question. **



What can't I see amongst it all?



** Yourself. Where you fit. You see the situations but no exits that sit comfortably with your inner child nor your inner adult. Both are wary and leary of your decision and thus won't stand forward to project a way. Your conscious deliberately blinds you to choices thata re important because it realises even your subconscious has not quite made up it's story. This is one that will take a while to fix. For now, stay with your instinct, your gut feelings but be careful not to be fooled by the betraying sense from the problems above. **



- Good God, I think I'm literally fucked without advice from someone who's been here and done this. I need someone who knows because I can't see this getting better without some serious input.



I don't know where to start...

Moods
01:27 Dec 12 2005
Times Read: 574




Sometimes,



The moods one can get come from simple things. As in, now I'll make this quaint and easy...



If a thread happens to say towards the end that anyone can happen to vote, what changes the rules? Answer - The Majority that says the rules have changed.



Unfortunately for some, just because one happens to vote that "is not allowed" by the archaic rules, doesn't mean they won't. In one's case, He had to be an ass, and be inpolite to my request.



Well.... You have my answer. Your next one I'm sure will be oh so nice, and I won't reply because if you're rude again, then hell. You don't deserve acknowledgement until you realise that I will only respond to the polite people.



In your case, I'm suggesting you close your bedroom door, get your mother to lock it and for your dog to swallow the key because you won't be coming out in a very long time.



Take your coffin with you, the natural lifecycle won't be enough.



- Enjoy and Pleasent evenings...





*Smiles*

Vindication of Emotions
03:25 Dec 10 2005
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It's alot to say, but I'm being to think I'm not so much terrified of Bees, Jellyfish or Drowning as I have an overwhelming urge to run and run fast to the closest possible titanium encased bomb shelter and not come out, or to exterminate the entire lot.



As for an update on the "BEES IN THE BIN" Saga.. well... It looks like the nice green bin we've had for roughly six years is going to go up in flames because the old queen has settled in the bin afterall. I thought, initially, that she had inclined to remove herself from the property on the basis of that a humanised garbage bin *does not* make the best smelling home. But it's alittle obvious these bees don't have a sense of smell whatsoever. That, and there wasn't one sign of them even after a threw a branch at the bin after 5pm here. The bin is full and they're still in it, still buzzing around and having settled - will die.



I would rather not harm them, we do have the choice of a beekeeper. The same beekeeper that we called before and was going to come for the other nest, if my brother hadn't set it alight so we had to call him. And now it's a case of re-call the bastard and go "For God's sake get out here... There's ANOTHER ONE here! IN THE BIN!"



A small note, I'm finally a shadow.... A thousand pages to look at is an interesting exercise because for some reason I managed to skip like 30 pages roughly, in looking at to get to the score level.... Go figure.



I like the new society scoring as well, it's proving to lighten the place up, give people something to encourage them to heighten their ranks. I imagine that not a few people will become a Sire and just walk through Houses or have many affliations of some kind. It's alittle interesting to see that there's no Covens, but full Houses... Wonder who will make a Coven now? Political Intrigue! Just watch and laugh.



There's enough of that going to happen with a few that I do know.

How On Gods name.....??
06:16 Dec 09 2005
Times Read: 579

This has me quite perplexed, How is it, that after so many weeks outside of contact with anything remotely email/postal like... I have this postal message that arrives and it's about computers? I am stunned because, obviously it's windows, but not that many people understand or even have a hint that I enjoy computers in my spare time.



As it was, I spent half an hour this morning from ten to 4 am getting this ridiculously out-of-date machinery to boot up to the normal level, only after having done many mundane things have I gotten it this far. It's not likely that if I de-frag this that it will work afterwards. I've told my mother that the hard-drive is going and all I hear in return is a "That'd be about right...."



Go figure. They complain about a slow computer, I speed it up just *slightly*, not more than noticeable and a) my cranium is chewed into pieces for my cleaning the desktop and b) for telling the owner of said computer than the OS is failing. Though I managed to rid the system of one little mal-ware I could find and not much else.



I am personally glad my little pet hasn't seen the light of eletrocity for the last eight months, and will continue to not do so until I get these newer parts for it's already flagging system. Though, to be fair, it's ten times, at least, faster than this even with less memory to spare.



Go figure.



I have shifted Houses again, and given advice once more. Though, I feel disinclined to moan or complain or mention my own problems s I know they will come good or I will pay the price for it. It matters not. I've learnt that just by being alive, it can cause alot of problems.



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It is amusing that nothing has changed here and that it seems pretty much the same. As in, a swarm of bees lands on an old chair on the back porch and my brother and his insane mate destroy the hive, only to have 3/4 of the hive come back in the morning looking for one very dead Queen.



She went up in flames with gasoline from a four stroke (? ) lawn-mower, bug-spray, water and the toxic fumes from the chair. To say the least is it now just after two in the afternoon and my brother and his *HIGHLY ALLERGIC* friend are out there killing the six or so that refuse to leave. "The Loyalists", you understand?



For now I am amused. Only today did one of my refferals realise that if she rises in rank does she give me points. *smiles* She's funny like that at times.

The Quiet Repose
07:54 Dec 03 2005
Times Read: 582

I came to this world alone... I will leave it alone. Surely something else is worth living for than that partiular term of phrase?



There is.



This day, I did not rise til twelve. This is not one of my many habits. Indeed, I've had others complain over my early risings... Standing on less than two hours sleep does not do me well but the extra hour and I am ahead of most in the case.



Go figure....

The female hasn't been back for two weeks. Her attendance... should she come back... will not be missed at all. *laughs*

House of Arkhanis
07:28 Dec 02 2005
Times Read: 585

The House of Ar'khan'is would like to issue a Statement of Return.



The House of Ar'Khan'is was forced to drop out of existance with a petty power-struggle having dis-heartened the Mistress and having taken two members with it in the early stages of the House's building. Wih the support gone, the Mistress put aside plans for rejuvination until such a time came where the House would rise and become a seemly and proper dedication unto itself.



Over the last four weeks, the Mistress has resumed the construction of her beloved work. And is please to announce the arrival of her consort/warrior Havoc and her Archivist/Historian Bull to the House.



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